Ugg...this is starting to feel like a perpetual cycle. One day I feel energetic, optimistic and inspired, then the next day I dragggg, don't feel like doing anything, don't get much done, and then am grumpy at myself because I feel lazy=) I do not know if this is just the way I should expect to be when pregnant, or if I "overdo it" on the days I feel good and then have to recover the next day. Yesterday was great and today, not so much.
It is hard for me to distinguish between physical tiredness (that I should listen to) or emotional tiredness (that I should ignore). Am I feeling blue because I am tired or tired because I am blue? And then I am annoyed with myself that I "feel down" when there is nothing wrong! Oh, the emotional swings of pregnancy!
Now I should stop talking and go get some more cleaning done....Friday is cleaning day! =) But I am glad I stopped to talk about this. Somehow putting feelings into words helps dissipate the gloom and confusion. It brings clarity to a formerly jumbled mess.
I know that everyone's experiences and temptations differ somewhat but any words of wisdom/encouragement are always appreciated. ;)
I know exactly how you feel! Some days I'm my happy self, but there have been a LOT of hard days in the past 13 months. I never knew mommying was going to be so tough! I also fall into 'lazy' days and feel guilty. sometimes I can rationalize why I need to take a break but usually I just feel like I'm not doing things I need to do. Maybe because we're both eldest born of large families? Anyway, I've been seeing a counselor to help me with lots of new emotions and that's been helpful. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteSounds totally normal to me, Lauren. I've never really figured exactly how to know when to push on and when to say enough. I will say that when it comes to being pregnant, I've learned that accepting my limitations is part of the lesson. I now look at my dirty bathroom as a trial to be endured, just like the nausea. That's not too say that we should never push through the tiredness and lethargy, but after I have the baby I always realize that the sense of guilt was largely misplaced. I feel so good that I realize I really did feel bad, it wasn't just in my head. There's a real physical phenomenon behind it. Of course it's still hard to figure out exactly how to cope!
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