Right now, he would be walking and climbing everything and eating legos. Probably not talking yet because Boyces take forever to learn to talk. My mom would be baking a cake for him and tonight, taking pictures of him blowing out his first little candle. He and Nate would have had a blast together last week. Instead, we all are aching today.
Whenever I think these thoughts, the wrongness of it all takes my breath away. Not wrong in that God was wrong to do this, but just the brokenness, the backwardness, the out-of-placeness. Outside, the birds are heralding the morning and the sun lighting up the leaves. How can such beauty coexist with such horror? I glad God left us some beauty when we chose death back at the fall, enough that the ugliness usually surprises us.
God is faithful, but we miss our Jimmy.
Praying for your family today, Lauren. I remember hearing the news of your loss as we drove home last year and just weeping and weeping for your pain. Truly God's ways are not our ways.
ReplyDeleteLauren, what sweet words of love, grief, and trust. Praying for you all at this time. Hope you enjoyed your visit home!
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